There is light in front of me, yet I enjoy the comfort of your shades. We have been through so much together; this forest and I. At times I thought I was outgrowing it, for it became as familiar as my own pockets. But then you decide to surprise me with the roads I hadn’t thought I had not taken. Every turn remain as mysterious as when we first met. For the H Spirit had inspired me many times here; therefore, you might as well be a magical forest. How I love every shape of you. For almost two years you have been my home. I don’t think I have stayed anywhere as long since I graduated. When life surprised me in ways I could never imagine. Choosing to stand at the right side of history, just have to walk the stories first.
I suppose one day I shall assemble a photographic album on you.
They say little girls grow up when we start having to make grown up decisions. I had wished my decisions would remain inconsequential for a while. But God happened.
Searching for me between the trees that have outlived me. Without noticing the steps I have taken, the turns I’ve made, and the person you helped me becoming.
“We have a testimony present, but we have not asked her yet,” one of the sisters said. With reason, for the time they asked, I declined. Not ready to put myself out there. But by not becoming whom we are created to be, we become like a tree without life. And you have been helping me to get used to the opinions and judgments of many. The beauty of each individual creation of God and their right to exist irrespective of their differences. We are each called to be His living testimony; for we are the ones who know that He exists.
In the silence of Your forest, the bees and the butterflies and the birds and the dogs coming to say hello. I can feel You everywhere again.
The people too. The trunk of the trees that have fallen, despite the majesticism of what they have once looked. Only because their roots were not firm enough. I therefore am grateful to the ones who are helping me to discern the things I am not (yet) ready to do.
I too am grateful for the timing that allows me to embark upon a new adventure: I am indeed looking for a place with more light, better ventilation, and more environmental friendly use of energy sources. Although sometimes things just happen, without us intending to make any changes, while those changes might just be everything we need. And I find myself having arrived at the road. Unintentionally. Yet necessary. For God never intended for us to hide in the forest forever. It is just a place He gave us to reconnect with.