A year ago today

Or even five years ago

 

Different people made me happy in different ways

 

I planned this trip like I would have spent it like a year ago

More than three months ago

 

Because I thought:

this is how I would have wanted

 

But experiences have shaped me

I didn’t realise how I have changed

 

I executed the plan I planned like I had planned under different circumstances

Just to realise I want something different than I did when I was planning it

 

A year ago today

I was different

At the same time,

I am the same

 

Just a different composition of what I feel like doing instead

 

So I think about my life

To the blessings of life

 

Having lived more in the moment

Complaining about the plans that fell apart

 

But I look back with a twisted smile

To all the things I thought I lost

Just to understand that if I didn’t, I might not have been happier instead

 

All the beauty in life are made of shadow and light

It is just the way the light falls…

 

That makes all the difference